Whats wrong with me............?

Okay, well you have to find and accept the fact that nobody hates you at all. I don't hate you and I'm even communicating. You have very deep emotional scars. If there its someone bothering you at school, I suggest you try to let it roll off of you out fight back. If you've made it for a year, you can deal with it. Try to persuade your parent or guardian to home school you. No matter where you go though, there will be those troublesome douches and there will be those friendly people. Its okay to talked about. Its normal to be picked on. Its okay to cry to someone. Your feelings have taken you down physically now. You need to be positive and just tell yourself "this its gonna be a good day" you have to trust people. People roam the earth so you can't stay away... I suggest you go out after accepting who you are and not basing your life on those buttholes that crossed you. An example of socializing that you did is that you posted a question on this site. I know that if you act confident, others will see that in you. This means appearing confident. People with low self esteem, wear baggy clothing and darker colors mostly... It will work in the end. I'll keep high hopes go read you. :)